衰退

this day, i decided to face reality, and accept whatever may come my way. 方法は嵐の前方にようであるかもしれない しかし私はあきらめない! should anything come my way, i will NOT hesitant to get it off my way.. this is my motivation, and i decided that i m going to be happy and not allow sorrows to overcome my life. i will give up sad memories, sorrows, e lust 4 materialism, n e attitude of being jealous n stop soaking myself in self pity!! i believe i can do it! i will be someone great and useful in the future! i can prove to the world that i m a person with backbone! =)) nobody can step me down. =D

so..... lAdies & gentlemen!! let me present e nEw mE !! =)) emiko shigehiru!! the new hannah!! =))

today is sunday. i m hving some kinda of dancing practice later on , while i m now still using the comp in lao shi office! =D havent used the comp 4 a llong long time. sometimes, when i have nothing to do, i will ponder over some stupid incidents that occurred. recently, my friend misunderstood me for liking him.. so strange, he ignores me, he thinks he is so great, like i will fall for him... hahas... hope he cacn look into the mirror b4 jumping to conclusions again. the most interesting thing is that, when i told him to clarify matters since a long time ago, he would'nt. and he said it wasnt me. okays.. i alrd found it very weird... i am NOT STUPID 4 heaven's sake n i noe how to handle matters maturely, unlike him, so childish. whatever it is, all i can say is, he destroyed a friendship so pure, now its going to be tough to mend it back.i cant say if can ever be on good terms like before, but all i can say now is that i am who i am, and i will NoT be dtrampled on so easily, like me for who i am, like me for a friend. i treasure everyone around me, until i feel hurt, and i'll learn to let go even if it takes a million gold. nothing matters more to me than my pride and integrity. if anyone hurts it, i will give em the worst of hell! =)) so whoever wants to try it, come and i will give you hell. i can exercise patience, but to a certain extent, if you're over that limit, too bad 4 u den.. sayonara! =) now, we are still on our way to being friends again, meanwhile, i feel myself not being able to trust the ppl around me, esp my NEW classmates, i have to be extra cautious of this ppl, sometimes, i feel intimidated, and being made used of, sod the best is i will carry on with life, and handle matters silently, that's my strategy, and i will live this way til i found somebody trustworthy.

thanks for reading my blog, hahas. i am a very emotional person. =)

~till we meet again, cya! =)