Others can, but I cannot!!! I MUST GROW!!
hmms, this season, god has been telling me to grow.
I finally found time to put it down in Black and White. Well, much has happened, and I must say, MORE is to happen. I'm anticipating much of what God has planned for me. The other day I was wondering about life after marriage. Today, I was just wondering about life between now and before marriage.
Looking back in life, I've noticed much change, and much that I need to change. I realized that I have grown to be a much stronger individual, however, there's much much more I have to learn as a individual. to obtain wisdom, and a bigger heart for Christ.
I thank God for allowing me to witness different situations in life. That, has caused me to grow and empathize.
I remembered, so many times, I came before God, yet heard no answer from him. I finally see His hands moving and working in my life now. I recall that before I went for the zone camp in November, I purposed in my heart to touch god when I am in camp. For me, my sole purpose of attending camp was to draw close to God. I remembered how i repeatedly told God before the camp that I must touch him before I leave the camp! hahas, god was Great, and I touched Him!
The feeling was great! up to this day, the feeling tingles in my heart! :)
2 weeks before the camp, God spoke into my heart. That week was pastor Lia preaching, and I remember how I came before God and told him that I'll be his hands and feet.
God at that moment said to me , "hannah, hannah, NOW IS THE TIME TO RISE! NOW, NOT BEFORE, NOT LATER BUT NOW! YOU SHALL BE MY HANDS AND YOU SHALL BE MY FEET"
At that I left church feeling rather touched but not enough. later on, about 2 weeks later, I actually touched God AGAIN!
in the camp, on the first night, no matter How tired I was, I could not sleep, so in the midst of all the slumbering bodies, I sat up, took my bible and devotion and used the "EXIT" sign as a lamp so that i could read in the dark. Unfortunately, I was in an uncomfortable posture. I decided to go out to do my quiet time, but used the excuse of going to the washroom so i could leave the room.
I stood up, and called Ting wei along for I had to go with somebody else. To my surprise, Naomi came along. hahas, it's kind of interesting though. But anyway, after I went to the washroom, I told them to go ahead and sleep 1st, while I do my quiet time and spend time alone with God. They persuaded me to go and sleep, but Me, being obstinate, I said, I NEEDED to spend time alone with God. Especially afteer having such a busy day, how can I NOT HEAR FROM GOD?? for its by God's grace I was even able to come for camp.
So they had no choice but to go ahead and sleep before me. That night was the most memorable night, and I would NEVER EVER FORGET it, for it the the turning point in my life, it was another stepping stone to the wonderful future God has for me. i remembered that whenevr God gives me 1 corithians 13, it meant that God wanted me to accomplish something great for him.
This time, god spoke to me through the part of the passage where it said "When I was young, I spoke like a child, think like a child, and when i am old, i act maturely.. etc.."
There and then, I sensed the holy spirit telling me to grow up. I knew it was a calling, so I took out my notebook and wrote to God all my feelings and thoughts. I even wrote a statement on saying "God, others may leave this camp without being touched by you, But I cann't and I will NOT leave this camp without being touched by you" Ieven told God that I seeked not to touch His hands, nor His face but HIS heart, for the very sole purpose I came is to do that.
After crying out to god and seeking his will, I felt peaceful, and ready to go and sleep. That night, I had the most wonderful bedtime ever.
I woke up afresh the next morning, and had a wonderful time at east coast park, playing the amazing race. That day was wondeful because my team was the last team to gather back at burger king and we had to wash the toilets! hahas, it was really fun washing the toilets, and of cos! we were tired but somehow even though givent hat time to take a nap before service started, Fedora, Ting wei, darren, and myself chose to use the time to worship God and just pray. It ws really powwerful for God just impressed upon me to pray for charleston for he was preaching and somehow, fedora jus spoke what God spoke to me 2 WEEKS ago!
I knew God was speaking to me for I never told anyone what God spoke to me then. I mean, word for word, almost. BUt that is NOT ALL !
that evening when Ivan prayed for me, whom I mistakenly took Him for being Leonard, hahas, OH DEAR! but anyway, IT was great!
God, through Ivan spoke to me, He told me that I was His Esther! WHat great revelation and compliment! I never felt so beautiful before! NOT TO THE EXTENT OF ESTHER'S beauty. ya.
But much much more God spoke through me, even after that day, in the servise and getting started session when pastor preached , about king david when God gave me the same passage just the night before pastor preached about it.
But so mush to say, if you wanna know, gotta ask me personally, so anyway, I gotta be off! hahas.
Just wanna end off this post by making a statement. "if God's for us, WHO ELSE can be against us?" I make this commitment to STAND for Jesus forever! :)
I finally found time to put it down in Black and White. Well, much has happened, and I must say, MORE is to happen. I'm anticipating much of what God has planned for me. The other day I was wondering about life after marriage. Today, I was just wondering about life between now and before marriage.
Looking back in life, I've noticed much change, and much that I need to change. I realized that I have grown to be a much stronger individual, however, there's much much more I have to learn as a individual. to obtain wisdom, and a bigger heart for Christ.
I thank God for allowing me to witness different situations in life. That, has caused me to grow and empathize.
I remembered, so many times, I came before God, yet heard no answer from him. I finally see His hands moving and working in my life now. I recall that before I went for the zone camp in November, I purposed in my heart to touch god when I am in camp. For me, my sole purpose of attending camp was to draw close to God. I remembered how i repeatedly told God before the camp that I must touch him before I leave the camp! hahas, god was Great, and I touched Him!
The feeling was great! up to this day, the feeling tingles in my heart! :)
2 weeks before the camp, God spoke into my heart. That week was pastor Lia preaching, and I remember how I came before God and told him that I'll be his hands and feet.
God at that moment said to me , "hannah, hannah, NOW IS THE TIME TO RISE! NOW, NOT BEFORE, NOT LATER BUT NOW! YOU SHALL BE MY HANDS AND YOU SHALL BE MY FEET"
At that I left church feeling rather touched but not enough. later on, about 2 weeks later, I actually touched God AGAIN!
in the camp, on the first night, no matter How tired I was, I could not sleep, so in the midst of all the slumbering bodies, I sat up, took my bible and devotion and used the "EXIT" sign as a lamp so that i could read in the dark. Unfortunately, I was in an uncomfortable posture. I decided to go out to do my quiet time, but used the excuse of going to the washroom so i could leave the room.
I stood up, and called Ting wei along for I had to go with somebody else. To my surprise, Naomi came along. hahas, it's kind of interesting though. But anyway, after I went to the washroom, I told them to go ahead and sleep 1st, while I do my quiet time and spend time alone with God. They persuaded me to go and sleep, but Me, being obstinate, I said, I NEEDED to spend time alone with God. Especially afteer having such a busy day, how can I NOT HEAR FROM GOD?? for its by God's grace I was even able to come for camp.
So they had no choice but to go ahead and sleep before me. That night was the most memorable night, and I would NEVER EVER FORGET it, for it the the turning point in my life, it was another stepping stone to the wonderful future God has for me. i remembered that whenevr God gives me 1 corithians 13, it meant that God wanted me to accomplish something great for him.
This time, god spoke to me through the part of the passage where it said "When I was young, I spoke like a child, think like a child, and when i am old, i act maturely.. etc.."
There and then, I sensed the holy spirit telling me to grow up. I knew it was a calling, so I took out my notebook and wrote to God all my feelings and thoughts. I even wrote a statement on saying "God, others may leave this camp without being touched by you, But I cann't and I will NOT leave this camp without being touched by you" Ieven told God that I seeked not to touch His hands, nor His face but HIS heart, for the very sole purpose I came is to do that.
After crying out to god and seeking his will, I felt peaceful, and ready to go and sleep. That night, I had the most wonderful bedtime ever.
I woke up afresh the next morning, and had a wonderful time at east coast park, playing the amazing race. That day was wondeful because my team was the last team to gather back at burger king and we had to wash the toilets! hahas, it was really fun washing the toilets, and of cos! we were tired but somehow even though givent hat time to take a nap before service started, Fedora, Ting wei, darren, and myself chose to use the time to worship God and just pray. It ws really powwerful for God just impressed upon me to pray for charleston for he was preaching and somehow, fedora jus spoke what God spoke to me 2 WEEKS ago!
I knew God was speaking to me for I never told anyone what God spoke to me then. I mean, word for word, almost. BUt that is NOT ALL !
that evening when Ivan prayed for me, whom I mistakenly took Him for being Leonard, hahas, OH DEAR! but anyway, IT was great!
God, through Ivan spoke to me, He told me that I was His Esther! WHat great revelation and compliment! I never felt so beautiful before! NOT TO THE EXTENT OF ESTHER'S beauty. ya.
But much much more God spoke through me, even after that day, in the servise and getting started session when pastor preached , about king david when God gave me the same passage just the night before pastor preached about it.
But so mush to say, if you wanna know, gotta ask me personally, so anyway, I gotta be off! hahas.
Just wanna end off this post by making a statement. "if God's for us, WHO ELSE can be against us?" I make this commitment to STAND for Jesus forever! :)
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