a setback in life

hmms,

Year 2008 came in a flash. I have no qualms against anybody, jus a little exhausted of being my TRUE CARNAL SELF. To be honest, I've not connected with God. To me, it is considered a really long time. I told myself to make that effort to do so everyday, as my new year's resolution, but since the beginning of the new year, I just brushed through my quiet time, shut off and really feel so tired. You ask me why? I seriously don't know what exactly happened to me. But I seriously feel ashamed to be called Hannah now. I don't even dare to dream about my future in God now. All confidence lost.

My leader seem to be busy most of the time. Sometimes,I feel really that she's uninterested in talking with me. But I am seriously not supposed to have such a response. There must be something deep within that wrecks me thats why I'm carrying such an attitude. However, I'm determined all the more to step out of my comfort zone. I need to grow bigger, and rely on God's strength not my own. I'm going to be humble, and learn from what's good. yeah. maybe I'm scabbed.