God, now How? now what?

So...
here, stuck with no way to go. No option but to live with the nasty things of others?
God, help me, help me, Lord, where you lead, I'll follow, where you are, I wanna be. Where you go, i'll go, just take me to where u are. I don 't belong here i really don't. tell me Lord, tell me what is going to be next. It's unbearable, its torturing, why does my heart feels like its been ripped n torn apart? why does it seems like i'm an outcast here??
Lord, Lord, hear my cry. I will not LISTEN to anyone but YOU, n You alone.