hmms, tough times do last..

Though I am pretty unsure why I'm feeling a little depressed, I can say that I am so looking forward to the day where I start ALL OVER AGAIN. Perhaps, I had been hutr before ,and reoccurences are making me sensitive all over again. Life seems weird not having any close friends nearby.seemed like all friendships has been severed ever since I entered this new scool. Issues I face are totally on a more advancesd stage of stress. So much more to spread my concerns about. Think I gotta plan my life ONCE AGAIN. hahs! How I wished the 2yrs are up SOON. I can't wait to leave this place. I mean, progress on in life, go on to a higher stand in life? Am i very compromising?? I've been pondering upon this issue recently. Have I started to sway away from God? Have I become just A nominal christian? Have I been More conscious about how ppl think abt me rather than God? have I been more influenced than influencing? MY, my. I have swayed, I have lost confidence . I have started to see things in a degraded level. I am starting to lose myself. I NEED TO PLAN MY LIFE! I need to find a focus and concentrate, set heart on what I want to gain in life during these 2 years in Yjc. Have I been a person of convictions and possibilities? has the devil found a loophole to make me fall? has he discsovered the way to stumble me? What am i gonna do now? I need to fight and go against the flow of the world. oh Jeusus, help me! Though my class maybe fun , exciting to hang out with, take the chance to play around with, but ultimately, I live for jesus. Yeah. I have finalised this season of life. That is, INSECURE> hmms. wat exactly is BOTHERING me? my heart? my soul, my SPirit, person and mindset?? I need to consider. I am still unfinished...

2008 in a whole new environment

wow! i can't believe i'm already in a new school! cool! life has been alright ever since i've i drew closer to God. wells, I got a good 20pts for my L1R5, and got myself administered into a Junior College quite near my place. The ONLY place my results could get me into. yeah, Yishun Junior College (YJC) On my first day of school, I joined a class which had ( in my opinion) the best team spirit in that place. Wells, I can say that it was'nt easy having attended the norm lessons on my first day, and I would say that its not going to be easy if I wanted to promote. I know that I must work hard even if I hated to, But, I am pretty sure I would. To me, its just 2 years!! i think i would miss this class though. Many of which would be going to other schools, and I will change my class after the release of the JAE, cos, I'm changing my subject combination. I decided to take china studies instead of geog. However, I'm really afraid if i have to face distracted and distracting individuals. I feel that now is the time to STAND firm! Yeah. thats about it for now. come back soon!