not a good feeling

Verse 1:
If my heart has grown cold,
There Your love will unfold;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
When I'm blind to my way,
There Your Spirit will pray;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Chorus:
Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.

Verse 2:
Present suffering may pass,
Lord, Your mercy will last;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I'll delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand



WEll, isn't a good feeling now, after a whole day, i guess, its the perfect humaness of myself that has caused my heart to burn so much. Perhaps, i'll call it jealousy, of which i have to repent tonight and seek my security in God all over again. My heart dipped when i heard the story, and this person was thoroughly honest with me, telling me the story all the way, i should have known better to not pry. Now, my heart is affected by it. Everybody has a past, and i too.. have my past. Well, i feel sad after hearing his story, somehow its made me feel sad. But i am glad that finally he has found the meaning of his life in God. I feel so childish and foolish to cling onto his past. Nevertheless, what has his life got to do with me? I should just live in silence about my affections, no matter how hard i tried to kill every bit of it, it grew over time, and i feel myself stepping into danger zone all over again. I can't let my character be compromised because if there is a future for both of us, then i should not be the one making the move. But i am so reluctant to let it go, because it feels as if it is going somewhere, but then again, it doesn't. I'm going in circles, and i should stop it once and for all. If i liked somebody, i'd like him all the way, disappointments may come my way, and in future, maybe a stab in the heart, but i cannot deny myself, and i should just keep it there and be rational about it. Just continue to pursue God and He will bring me through life. I've got so much to think and plan out. relationship issue are just so complicated

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

blown away! ! !

Boy!

Its monday and I have to start LIVING ! haha.


I think yesterday was really powerful. Somehow, I felt lifted in my Spirit. What pastor said to me really encouraged me. Though i may not have been the best person to take the stage, but i know that I gave my best for God, and I chose to glorify His name through my testimony than to speak well and proper on stage and carry no presence of God. i was also pretty amazed at what God has done for me. Truely, he has heard my cry. now, even as I type my word, I can vividly recall the events that took place so quickly I had no time to think it through careflly.

I received a call from denise like on thursday when i happened 2b writing my testimony for BMT(A) again. When I picked that call, I had a ball of mixed emotions.I did not know if I should be happy, or nervous. I knew that it was my chance to proclaim the good news for Christ, yet I was really afraid I would forget about Godand snatch His glory. i sometimes really fear having my name mentioned on the pulpit. My heart would thump harder if I hear my name. I guess i'm really a shy person, yet, when I felt low, God reminded me that faith is not fearing and feeling nervous. i knew I had to do something if God wanted to use me.

Thus, despite the fact that I have been pretty apart from God for sometime, but still clinging on to Him, and his promises, I started to see how God actually promotes one person. I mean, just when everybody to expect one thing to happen, the total opposite occurs instead. i must say that God really is God and he has His plans and ways of working. i don't think anyone could ever fathom how great God is.

Now the testimony is over, pastors words ring over and over again in mind mind and heart. The first statement he made was 'i can feel the anointing' to me, that was the best compliment I had ever received from pastor. That was exactly what i prayed for when i fasted a few days back, and just before service and my testimony to make sure that the presence of God befell on me. For his reason that is why I stood on stage. Another thing I really prayed for and desired for was to really set the platform for the next person to further pull down God's presence, so that God can work through the hearts. To me, setting the platform for my pastor meant a lot. That is why i really prayed so hard to have that connectionn with pastor How and Pastor Lia. I love my pastors, and I will never trade them away. since the day i set my heart to stay in HOGC, I have promised God that i'll be faithful to the man and woman of God, and no matter how the world may see HOGC, I will proudly declare that I belong to that church, and I serve pastors, and please Jesus.

Today, i received an unexpected sms from Chew. It says this: "Hi guys! There's leaders' meeting with Ivan this sat, 11pm to 1pm. Pls take note! Pls reply (: Cc: Samantha"

when i read it, I was like WOW! okays, God, is this for real? I asked the Lord, God was like: you can pinch yourself. I was totally blown away. MY! i'm included in this meeting!so exciting! I must GROW GROW GROW!!! I must not let God, Pastors, Charleston, ivan or Samantha down. With that, I leave my post here having a pre-made decision in heart and mind, that is to remain faithful to the course. to live life right! :)

Love,
Hannah 2.0
>> Love God, Love People, Love Life!

I saw a shooting star???

yeah, right, right.

You may wonder how crazy I am to say that. Especially if you take into consideration the fact that I SAW A SHOOTING STAR IN SINGAPORE??!!


truth is, I did infact saw a shooting star at serangoon gardens yesterday. It shot past in a glimpse, and I'm still not over it yet bcos I've never seen one! I'm so so fascinated!!! check it out someday! It looked like a fire ball that shot past! I'm seroius and not joking!! hahas, whatever the case, I'm off now!! so much to complete! :)

All over again

oh Boy,

Its already the middle of another week. Life is NOT EASY. It has beenr ather hectic, I must say. Friends are getting rather a part of my life. They sometimes get on my nerves, but nonetheless, they are still nice people. Maybe I have been rather over-sensitive to situation and occurences around me lately. I don't even know if I'm really getting myself or if I am just starting to change into the person of my nightmares..

Oh God, please save me before anything worse happens!!

NOW IS THE TIME FOR US TO SHINE!

Now is the time for us to shine
Shine with the face of Christ divine
No compromise
For all heaven shines
Now is the time!!!


It had been the best revival since last Saturday! God had it all planned for me. I am so impressed to share it. I now know my dorection and my aims, goals and vision. Pastor's sermon was so powerful, I had to say. So great that I could feel so strongly once again the Holy Spirit speaking to me. Powerful was it bcos I had a renewed vision and sense of direction. I recall now as I type what happened that day was the freshly imprinted version that seemed to faded over time over my heart again. I have a vision, that is to have the father's heart. To cared for His young and shepherd them. I have a dream that is to give the best years of my life fully for the sole purpose of Jesus Christ. To dedicate myself to work as a volunteer in church yet at the same time, work in the world having my own biz. I have another goal that is to carry the gospel of my Lord and saviour to the nations through the testimonies of my LIFE> being chased of the lirary now.. HOME home, here I come! :)

hmms, tough times do last..

Though I am pretty unsure why I'm feeling a little depressed, I can say that I am so looking forward to the day where I start ALL OVER AGAIN. Perhaps, I had been hutr before ,and reoccurences are making me sensitive all over again. Life seems weird not having any close friends nearby.seemed like all friendships has been severed ever since I entered this new scool. Issues I face are totally on a more advancesd stage of stress. So much more to spread my concerns about. Think I gotta plan my life ONCE AGAIN. hahs! How I wished the 2yrs are up SOON. I can't wait to leave this place. I mean, progress on in life, go on to a higher stand in life? Am i very compromising?? I've been pondering upon this issue recently. Have I started to sway away from God? Have I become just A nominal christian? Have I been More conscious about how ppl think abt me rather than God? have I been more influenced than influencing? MY, my. I have swayed, I have lost confidence . I have started to see things in a degraded level. I am starting to lose myself. I NEED TO PLAN MY LIFE! I need to find a focus and concentrate, set heart on what I want to gain in life during these 2 years in Yjc. Have I been a person of convictions and possibilities? has the devil found a loophole to make me fall? has he discsovered the way to stumble me? What am i gonna do now? I need to fight and go against the flow of the world. oh Jeusus, help me! Though my class maybe fun , exciting to hang out with, take the chance to play around with, but ultimately, I live for jesus. Yeah. I have finalised this season of life. That is, INSECURE> hmms. wat exactly is BOTHERING me? my heart? my soul, my SPirit, person and mindset?? I need to consider. I am still unfinished...

2008 in a whole new environment

wow! i can't believe i'm already in a new school! cool! life has been alright ever since i've i drew closer to God. wells, I got a good 20pts for my L1R5, and got myself administered into a Junior College quite near my place. The ONLY place my results could get me into. yeah, Yishun Junior College (YJC) On my first day of school, I joined a class which had ( in my opinion) the best team spirit in that place. Wells, I can say that it was'nt easy having attended the norm lessons on my first day, and I would say that its not going to be easy if I wanted to promote. I know that I must work hard even if I hated to, But, I am pretty sure I would. To me, its just 2 years!! i think i would miss this class though. Many of which would be going to other schools, and I will change my class after the release of the JAE, cos, I'm changing my subject combination. I decided to take china studies instead of geog. However, I'm really afraid if i have to face distracted and distracting individuals. I feel that now is the time to STAND firm! Yeah. thats about it for now. come back soon!